I was diagnosed with breast cancer in June. What a roller-coaster ride. It hasn’t been easy…and it isn’t meant to be, I know. Some days I feel strong, confident and hopeful, and the next day I am feeling sad, emotionally drained and filled with anxiety.
All around me there has been cancer. I know so many people who have had some kind of cancer, or are currently going through treatment or surgeries. Now I am one of those people to embark on the cancer journey, as well.
I believe there are people whose faith is constantly being tested. I am one of those people. I know in my heart that everything happens for a reason and there are lessons to be learned in everything that we go through in life—even crises.
For me, I need to stay positive throughout the day, asking for guidance along the way. When I can do that, I get answers. I get the strength and courage to put one foot in front of the other and get through that day, that moment.
So many people were telling me to see this doctor; go to this hospital; seek this treatment; don’t do this, do that. After a while all I heard was “wha, wha, wha,” like in the old Charlie Brown shows. I couldn’t put any more information into my brain. And at the same time, I was working on publishing this issue, handling everyday tasks and talking to my husband, son, daughter, parents and siblings about my diagnosis. Feeling the feelings, going through the emotions, each of us in our own way. Very overwhelming, to say the least.
One night I lay on my deck looking up at the stars. I was praying, putting my questions out to my higher power and asking for guidance. Where should I go to get the surgery? Is it Memorial Sloan Kettering? Then I saw a shooting star. I’d received my answer. Another night I did the same thing and asked about a specific surgeon who was recommended. Again, I saw a shooting star and knew I’d gotten my answer.
We all have our own way of dealing with life and its challenges, and this is how I choose to handle mine. This is yet another part of my journey in life. I may not like it; however, it is meant to be. I know that I will come out of this stronger than I already am. I need to keep being the best version of me that I can be, and hopefully, it will inspire those around me to do the same. █